So i've came to the conclusion that..if i don't have the guts to speak up about the problem, then i should just leave it behind me and not let it affect me yeah?
at least let me try convince myself everything will be alright.

Started work today!
tiring standing around but was ok. i don't mind looking at beautiful crystals everyday & being able to touch them :)
it's awesome that when i sign in to work in the morning, i get to go stock room & pick out a set of jewelleries for me to wear during the whole day. SO COOL! lol.
but cause afterall it is crystals & the prices are pretty high, alot of people come in & try things on then say "i'll think about it" my sales today wasn't the best but i'm sure as Christmas approaches, more & more people will come!

35 days or so till Christmas :)
excited? kind of.
don't know what is planned for me though. for both Christmas & new years.
would love to spend it with the boy & friends, but i know it will be one or the other not both. :/

i suddenly got motivated to clean my room now. going to take shower & spend tonight cleaning & packing away folders & notes from highschool.

long day tomorrow, dentist --> work --> city for dinner with SU :)

until next time, cya!

/EDIT

so things did not get solved and never will.

Finally back to church this morning, felt great to see everyone's pretty faces!

afterwards went to parra then LILY's 18th Birthday party @ parra park :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!
just hung around the park till like 5 then decided to leave since everyone was going.
had pho for dinner with Ben & Matt before heading home.

something not so fortunate happened this weekend. It's putted a number of people in worry.
hopefully in few hours everything will be solved.

this weekend's been really shit.

It's not easy being the woman behind him.

ok it's not fucking easy at all.
& i hate it so fucking much.

Right now, only this comforts me...

So on tuesday SU & I went shopping.
i bought a bit more than i wanted, i guess it makes up to the MONTHS that i havent been shopping properly due to empty wallet.
finally bought a new pair of jeans, after saying that for like 478327432 years.
bought:
LEE denim supatube h/rise
VG cute white top
Havaiannas, black based with fluro pink strips. SO BRIGHT!
Ben's present which is a drum clock, since he's a drummer.

starting work next week!
been driving these 2 days, my parking's improved alot.

Now waiting patiently for the boy to finish school & call me.
going out with him tonight i think :)
it'll just be us two so i'm looking forward to it.

been bludging at home doing unproductive stuffs..since as watching cdrama & sims2 & nap!
still havent cleaned out all folders from HSC. must do that soon!